tunggu, berlari itu pasti

aku berlari

sebelum, dan seterusnya

entah bila penhujungnya

cerah, gelap atau kelabu, mungkin

keseorangan

aku berlari, terus

berharap hujung yg cerah

teman, ku tahu

engkau turut berlari

sepantas mungkin

dilaluan yg berbeza

teman, tatkala satu ketika

kita bakal berlari

di satu laluan, berlari

agar hujung itu

cerah

tunggu, pantas ku tunggu

ketika itu tiba

dari jauh, ku lihat

dan berdoa, berharap

agar ketika itu tiba

dan kini, aku menunggu

dan akan terus berlari

(miri, 2009)

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p/s: post ke 100!

p/s2: ni aku bosan time kat miri, ubah skit2 je

gamelan utp for dummies

assalamualaikum...

[first and foremost, this is not an intriguing or insulting post, read through if you think you would like to hear my last teaching regarding gamelan utp, saje je kasik title macam panas skit..

with regards to some request from the gamelan utp members, here would be my last tips (i believe so) for gamelan utp. would there be any other tips afterwards? i do not know which i do hope this one alone is suffice. others is solely up to the current team. like i said, we are the ex not the current, we can do is merely to see and comments for the benefit of the team.

there are lots of stages for the management to manage the team and for the other members to contribute to the success for the team which i hop, it is deliberately being explained here]

planning

planning of team members is solely up to the vacancy and quota for each batch...my standard practice is about maximum of 4 people per batch and max of 2 or 3 per each batch per instrument. thus, it is up to coordinator to plan. locating a 'good' player is also tough, it cant be made tru one night but it is usually 1 sem of surveillance. what we trully see can be varied but seniors is always see commitments, ATTITUDE, discipline and passion.

training

a young member should always come as early as possible since he/she have to practice twice/thrice as much as the seniors or she/he would be left behind and blurred for quite a time.and it doesnt meant that if you are ok or being a senior, u can come late since being seniors, your responsibility are increased. u have to teach the juniors or else, the team can collapse, not because of he/she alone but unsynchronize aura from the team.

if you may think, you are completely good in your instrument, then go for other instrument. there is always a lack in your skills and always think that u can improve better for the group would help. it is always important to have that sense of feeling. dun waste your time coming for training just for the sake of usha awek, sms-ing, fb-ing, sleeping, rubic and etc...once you are in the room, just all out.

in training, understand what the songs should sound like, the bit, the rythm? (ah tatau eja), harmony and others..it is important to correct it esp when there are lots of new members...there are always more risk if there are more new members...this is a fact...and management should take care of this...

songs management

songs for gamelan are limited, it is well known among the team. so the coordinator need to know what songs to be played which would give more advantage to the team, which songs that they are most prepared, less risk, have more training, less mistakes, and familiar with. besides that, you may also need to go for a backup songs if situation ask for it..always have a backup plan, not only in gamelan, but in ur life too...

secondly, you may also need to understand that there are people who are deply in love in gamelan and notice what songs being played per year...esp staff, medtech, those taking gamelan and etc..lots of thing to consider...

members management

it is important for management to understand the 'aura' of your team members...whether they are ok and etc2...protect them, make them happy since members are the assets of the team..without them, there are no more gamelan utp...details? i do believe some of you know better than this..

please make sure that the team is happy and less tension...music are meant to give happiness and not tension!

pre-performance

how many players to be included per performance, the availability of members, the locations, the instruments (which should be tested prior to transportation), the small2 things and mic...coordinator should listen on where the songs are coming from and where the mic should be located.it is important for the outcome of the sound to balance out from the team..

and always have time for rehearsal eventhough you have been training for 2 months prior to the event..new situation, new surrounding can kill the team, and always include this risk into the planning...same goes if you have been training yesterday and on the day, just play 1 songs to check on the mic and the feeling of the team...YES IT IS IMPORTANT!!

performance

management should give some sort of speech to reduce the 'kecuakkan' of the team..to comfort the team and then after 1 song, the team should be fine...that is why, pre performance are important...

the team should always remember that they are not playing for themselves but for the audience..what important is to bring happines not to us, but to others too...

past performance

get together after the training can help to bring the team into shape, transporting the instrument back to the lorry, kemas2 and have few small talks on what to improve should give a good impact to the team...

and mapley! is also good...pekena teh tarik sambil2 borak, pergh sumpah lege....

hurm, i dun noe but i do believe i have covered all aspects of gamelan utp...good luck and have fun for gamelan utp...this i would say the good bye note, not that i want to leave you guys but i do believe that gamelan utp should stand and walk on its own..i believe that i should give more space for the current management by giving tips and this might be one of the way....

always remember your roots, gamelan utp is the most discipline and trusted group in UTP...we are known to have a very good record in delivering our job and that is WHY we can play gamelan not only inside but outside UTP...since the management TRUST us...and do not, do not BREAK the trust...

p/s: from now on, i can shape my future faster...dun worry, ill be there if God permits me to be there...family will always be family and all those memories, for the past 5 years being with gamelan will always be in my "external hd" :P

maaf kerana menjadi org yang loser...

assalamualaikum...

bile aku masuk ke dewan convo, mende pertama yang aku carik, adalah dak gamelan...bagi aku, 4 tahun di tempat yang sama dan kali aku dah tak boleh bersama korang..ini adalah masa untuk aku pula menerima scroll...dalam hati, aku berdoa agar arini semuanya akan berjalan lancar seperti tahun2 lepas...rasa gembira dalam dada, kurang2 bile dah turun dari pentas, ada org yg sambut aku...tak macam org2 lain...tho aku frust gamelan tak iring aku atas pentas masa aku amik scroll dari tun, tp tape, kurang2 diorg menanti di bawah....

aku tau that fact...have been always having the same feeling for the past 5 years...waiting for my seniors to come down, to greet down, hug if possible, congratulating them and see they walk through us to their seats....detik paling sebak skali, bile senior2 yg sebelum ni part of team, skang dah grad....tp skang, aku pula yg dipeluk dan diberi hadiah....

dari jauh aku tgk dak gamelan iring utk dak master...sebelum aku nek ke atas pentas menerima scroll....keroncong would be the one who be the background music later...lepas salam tun, aku turun ke tmpt gamelan, tmpt aku berada utk 4 tahun...i miss that spot...dak2 gamelan waiting to give their presents...aku bukan mahukan hadiah, seeing u guys playing well for the convocation, is the only one that i want...tape, aku kata, they will be well..aku nk tunjukkan kat kawan2 aku yg tak penah tgk aku main gamelan, yg inilah gamelan yg wat aku tak g mapley ngan korg, kurang2 rempit ngan korg, tak berdota ngan korg dan jarang kat blk....aku nk tunjukkan kat mak ayah aku, yg inilah gamelan yg aku duk gila smpi aku jarang blk rumah, sekejap cuti sem, skip reunion semata2 panggilan gamelan...

i noe they will do well...they are my gamelan utp for god sake...

then, convocation starting to have more mistake...unlike last year...no worries, i said to my frens...gamelan will prevail, since dalam byk2 team kat dalam hall, adalah yg terbaekh...aku sgt gembira bile diorg kena men utk tun rehat kejap...bg aku, ini mungkin adalah hadiah yg paling bes...terigt aku, bile kitaorg kena men lagu ni 2 tahun lepas, aku wat salah utk lagu ni...tp sbbkan ada senior2 yg tlg cover, jnr2 yg tlg cover, maka lagu tu dah takde masalah...i wont forget how fragile i was at that time, nak nangis pon ada sbb aku macam merosakkan convocation senior..tp bile mak ayah senior2 kata, bagus anak, sedap korg main...senior2 kata wah besnya lagu baru korg...aku rasa terubat...

tp, diorg tak main macam aku sangka...mungkin nervous, mungkin diorg masih muda, tp aku masih tidak faham, adakah lagu yg aku wat salah menghantui aku? mungkin ini takdir tuhan...adakah aku frust? semestinya...diorg tak mintak maaf? ye diorg mintak maaf...aku bukan mahukan kemaafan tu, i just want to see gamelan utp always and always be the best performance group in utp...tp aku macam tak nmpk at that point..adakah aku salah? aku tak tahu...aku takot nk accept the fact that maybe gamelan utp is at lower point...

since its that the case, i may not doing my job well...the one yang aku slalu fikir dalam 4 tahun aku jd coordinator, smpi tugas lain tak wat, adakah ia sia2?aku pon tak tahu nk jwb macam mana...aku siyesly tak tahu...

kenapa aku tak penah marah before this? sbb takde issue aku nk marah..i do believe everything going to be ok soon...tak nafikan aku mmg berangin, tp aku sedar, when handling lots of people, berangin is not a good feature...tp takkan a nk kata aku taleh marah...marah tu taleh nk buang...marah bole dicontrol, tp bile tgk something yg wat ko frust, marah tu terkeluar...if showing part of me that you guys didnt not expect to see and get mad, so it is basically the same case as me...korg offended and get mad...why dun take it positive and change it? aku bukan kata2 sbb aku marah, if tgk clearly, it is part that all of u may need to change...

SUMPAH...aku tak igt ayat tu kuar..jarang aku guna kat org selain geng2 aku, in fact kat geng2 aku pon jarang...but if those word did come out, which few pepel said it did, dengan ini aku memohon maaf...sorry for not having a high EQ at that point, tp aku bukan org yang perfect...

tp bile org marah sbb aku marah, mungkin itu perkara normal...mungkin mereka mahukan mende ini ditutup...which aku mmg nak buat...bg aku, damage has been done...lets forget it and move on cause its the best thing for everyone...aku bukan mahukan kemaafan atau org sujud, siapa aku utk terima mende2 ni...aku just nk tgk, gamelan utp tetap power...itu je harapan aku dari dlu smpi sekarang...salah ke impian aku ni?

yeah maybe 1 salah, 1 salah pon berkira ke org kata, tp if salah ini, membuatkan team elok, lg power, maybe dengan cara aku yg salah, hinggakan aku jd org yg salah...maka maaf kerana aku berfikiran begitu...

korg takkan penah faham bagaimana gamelan utp yang sebelum ni hanya dari kelas gamelan 2, jd gamelan utp...macam mana management utp trust our capability, macam mana management utp setuju utk beli alat baru utk kita, macam mana usaha senior2 before aku bekerja keras utk memastikan gamelan utp terus hidup...jgn fikir mende kecik, and jgn kecik ati kerana ada sorg tak berguna marah korg kerana dia mungkin lebih tahu apa yg terbaekh...

akan tetapi, gamelan utp skang adalah milik korg...mintak maaf skali lg kalau aku terlampau sayang gamelan hinggakan aku marahkan korg...gamelan utp adalah sebahagian diri aku, dan bila aku tgk gamelan utp macam teruk, aku terkena tempias...sorry for being a loser and get mad for a 'small' thing...

(adakah aku salah?)

the ball has stated rolling, on what course it will roll, now its up to the young ones...

p/s: aku xmo panjangkan mende2 ni...bkn aku yg skang...if aku umur 20 tahun, aku mmg suka membakar, ayat pon bakar tak habis2, keras kepala, bajet power and etc...but masa aku skang sudah tamat...

tok guru gamelan aku dah kawin...so, who's next?

assalamualaikum...

erm...dalam banyak2 gamba, kenapa aku pilih gamba ni..one of the main reason dia adalah sbb pegangan tangan ini adalah halal sbb diorg dah kawin...bg aku, walau betapa susah skali pon, halal itu haruslah dicari dan dikejar...jgn la disebabkan susah nk dapatkan yg halal, kita tutup mata dan go for yg tak halal..sesungguhnya, yg halal itu adalah lebih baik dari segi sifat dan juga effect dia on diri kita...tp dari segi halal bukanlah seharusnya pada penghujungnya sahaja, tp haruslah juga dalam mencapai penghujungnya...maka marilah kita berusaha utk mencari dan mecapai yang halal dalam kehidupan ini insyaAllah...fuh~ fight oh!

cite psl pasangan kali ni akan diceritakan kemudian ye? kepada tok guru aku, zahrawi dan anak buah aku, norliyana, semoga Allah sentiasa merahmati diri kamu sekeluarga...kami dari clan gamelan, will always pray for u guys...last question, so, who's next? :P

p/s: ini je dlu bole upload untuk setakat ni...later bru upload byk2 gamba diorg...

^^v