lesson 20 - the weight

assalamualaikum...

in certain part or time, all the things that you knew, you felt, you understood, has been piled up, taken up the storage loading, filled up most of your time, and at that point of time, you might have think, that's time for you to tidy up, clean up or archive it.

for the things to be cleared, for new things and all kind of new, to be given a space in certain part or time. but, would it be appropriate, to clean up and archive it? would the clean up give you the things that you really need, or it just, maybe, provide you the surface of what you really need? would it be, by cleaning up, the weight can be less on your shoulder to carry, but at the end, after a while, you miss the weight that you have been carrying all these time?

the storage, along with the time and things it had, may or may not grew, proportionate to the allocation that it had been allocated, but it is possible, where managed properly. and all kind of new subject, can fit into the exisiting storage.

again, its merely an option.

and not an excuse. nah, its not.

cause i would rather be filling, carrying and managing it now, before later. cleaning is possible, but not archiving nor cutting loose end. that weight, the weight is what and somehow taught and teach you sooner or later.

probably and currently the best generation

assalamualaikum and good day..

out of respect for my seniors, you are still the best and i sincerely would like to thank you for the contribution, passion, knowledge, guidance and space for the current gamelan utp now are at. because without you, the current team may not be as they are now.

thank you and thank you.

nevertheless, i have seen so many gamelan players coming in and out from the team, although undeniably there are possibility of previous players who might have higher passion, skills and creativity, however, i would personally say that this is probably and currently the best generation i have seen so far. and close to my ideal case of gamelan utp, which i had in mind few years back.

reason being?

i have never seen such a huge number of dedicated seniors at one time. their highly contribution, attitude in voicing out, discussing out their feelings, opinion shows that how deep is their concern and love towards the team. each of the section (if i may call), have their own section 'head' in which take care of their juniors. these number of people at one time, i should say thank you to nazmi, for taking up these number of people at the first place, though causing me problem after that to turn, cut, trench them up.

the seniors who come up to training earlier from the juniors, eventhough literally they can not to come to training, as they know their training earlier on are suffice.

the seniors who discuss, brainstorm and argue on the way forward.

the seniors who take care of the juniors.

the seniors whom i can say, cut to bear the title of dewa.

the seniors who strike an instrument without a doubt, yet no mistake was done.

and its a no longer one man show.

its a good investment, yeah it was. and thank you Allah, for simply showing a bit of your nikmat for us to see how great our investment are.

though it seems that all of you might have take quite a time to come at this level, however taking example from the log tree, the longer time the log take before cutting down, the higher the value can be. it has been justified.

thank you org2 tua sekarang, for being a great tree, as such the juniors can easily fit and rest underneath you. dun rest yet, that would be my main advise. you may want to slow down, but totally rest. eventhough some of you might have grad afterwards, it is indeed important to remain contacts with the current team.

as i was saying the important of seniors, the same goes for alumni. indeed the seniors can handle the team, but there are reasons why older people live and needed to guide the young ones. we might not be directly involve, but staying besides the line will help and ease off when the emergency button were pressed. or in order words, it can also help us to gather again, and do some little jamming, though our level might be shaken off by the rust, but yeah, we are still x-gamelan utp. our level should be more than gamelan 2 people right?

so what next?

the main challenge that i can see as of now, whether the kanak2 riang, kanak2 and orang2 muda can step up and fill up the spot left by orang2 tua. it is indeed a challenge, as proven by the previous and current orang2 tua before. however i do wish that the current progress doesnt give the negative slope by year end but, at least provide a m=0 slope where y=mx+c.

as a conclusion to that, the pressure is all left to the juniors (kanak2 riang, kanak2 and orang2 muda) to succeed as the gamelan utp. to perform as par or exceed it, to maintain the level, the legacy, the credibility. what at stake is huge. it not something to be played with.

hence the next simple question is, what should the juniors do?

for long explanation, you may want to browse through previous post. but to make the loading free and etc, lets us talk here and then.

1. you should, above all, utilize these seniors (by either pleading, crawling to transfer their knowledge)
2. self discipline and attitude, is not a new topic, and these are the thing that you yourself should know and master, eventhough there is no written laws and guide on that. and trust me, with only these two thing, excluding talent, will make you go far.
3. self-training eventhough there were no seniors to help and guide
4. mix around with the team, you are now siblings of many, not only 3-4 people
5. as much as possible, be a dewa :)

lastly, what should avoided?

the reason why i opted for democracies (proxy of four, five etc) rather than monarchy (kukubesi, which is my era) is that you can not consume everything within a man. it gave them lots of burden. i know, done that. how i can do it? its another topic.

the function of democracies or 'management' is to handle the players. the well being of players. players is our main assets. the numbers of hours, numbers of countless effort to develop, trench, cut them, is huge and intolerable. and i had caused me a great pain, when a player wanted to quite, even after few weeks joining the team, and you can imagine what doest it felt if one senior were to left the team. (this doesnt include graduation of course). hence, please take care of the players.

this however, doesnt make a players a king. be a modest and keep the right attitude. we may accept a polyps, but not a cancer. :)

secondly, avoid internal struggle, dats why we created a proxy. we may opt for separate management like others group, but i do like the idea that non-art people doesnt know how art people operate. hahaha. it a selfish mind, but yeah, it does call for a strike. everything, should be discuss, as we are a half adult, and forever a kid.

my regret?

do i have one? last nite i did. last nite i was thinking to myself, why i have been in a wrong generation (sorry seniors and friends), not be able to perform in big occasion outside utp (yeah, been able to play at convocation, is a huge honour, and 4 times performing at convocation, for 4 years in the team is a huge achievement ok). but i consulted myself in saying, there is a reason behind it, maybe and maybe because you were few years earlier on, the team is current at this level.

i can go now. EiG should be next. yeah, lets do some crazy stuff with EiG.
thanks kids.
like i was smiling all the time while you are performing, thank you.

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thank you

thank you Allah and thank you.
:)


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lesson 19 - analogi pemancing si tukang masak

tersebutlah kisah hikayat seorang pemancing yang juga si tukang masak yang merasakan suda tiba masanya pada hari tersebut, untuk dia ke laut. ke laut untuk menunaikan dan melaksanakan apa yang diperlukan untuk dia terus hidup.

sudah diketahui dan sudah diteliti kenapakah harus dia pergi ke laut untuk memancing dan kemana dan apa yang harus dilakukan untuk pergi memancing. lubuk2 ikan selar, ikan parang, ikan bawal semua sudah didalam otaknya cuma hatinya harus memilih, yang mana satu yang harus dipancingnya.

maka tiba masanya untuk bergerak ke laut, akan tetapi dia tahu, ke laut banyak caranya. melalui bot besar, sampan kecil mahupun hanya menumpang bot org lain ke laut. apapun caranya, duit harus dikeluarkan untuk menampung kepemergiannya ke laut. banyak atau sedikit hasilnya, dia juga tahu, ia bergantung kepada caranya ke laut. akan tetapi, sesetengah pemancing berpendapat, ikan tidak melihat cara, akan tetapi melihat umpan yang dipasangkan pada mata joran. asalkan ikan itu tidak materialisitik, sudah pasti dengan sampan milik orang lain pun mampu diangkat juga ikan tersebut.

setelah malam menjelma, bertemankan langit yang tidak berbulan, gelap akan tetapi cahaya bintang yang malap mampu memberikan petunjuk kepada sesiapa yang memahami dan melihat dengan sebenar-benar melihat, si pemancing itu bergerak menaiki cara yang dipilihnya. mungkin kali ini, hanya sampan yang dia mampu. berdayung dan mencari lubuk yang difikirnya selamat untuk memancing, dan dengan itu, dia pasang dan dilontarkan umpan ke dalam laut. mungkin boleh saja dia melontarkan jala, tp adakah dia pasti, sampan itu mampu menyimpan hasil jalaannya?

setelah lama menunggu, mungkin seperti sebelum ini, hasilnya tiada. mungkin sudah tiada ikan yang merasakan umpan itu layak dimakan. atau mungkin rezekinya adalah pada ikan yang sebelumnya kecil, akan tetapi sudah membesar tatkala dia memancing.

malam bergerak, dan akhirnya disentap jua tali pancing itu.

pemancing itu kaget. berdebar, adakah mungkin ikan itu tidak mampu ditewaskan? maka satu pertarungan, apa yang harus dilakukan. kalau ditarik sekuat2nya, maka mungkin tali itu akan putus, dan ikan itu akan pergi. mungkin kalau dilepas tali, cangkuk itu pun terlepas dan ikan itu berenang kembali. walau ikan itu berenang, luka dimulut tetap ada, dan luka pasti meninggalkan parut.

maka pemancing itu menarik dan melepaskan tali, diharap supaya ikan itu mengikut rentaknya dan akhirnya tewas. tarik dan lepas.

tarik dan lepas. dan ia semakin dekat.

tarik.

tarik.

lepas.

tarik.

tatkala ikan itu sudah dirasakan sudah dekat, difkirkan pula, selepas sahaja ia diangkat naik, maka ikan itu akan cepat untuk tidak segar. diingatkan pula, adakah dia sudah menyediakan persediaan dirumah untuk memasak ikan itu. sudah adakah garamnya? gula? bawang putih? kunyit mahupun halia? apakah yang ingin dimasak dengan ikan itu? kenakah resepi dengan ikan tersebut? siakap, bawal atau parang, ada masakannya tersendiri.

dan dia tahu, jika persediaan memasak belum ada, maka lebih masa akan diperlukan untuk memasak, dan lebih masa bermakna keadaan ikan itu akan kurang elok berbanding yang asalnya. berbelah bagi si pemancing itu, adakah harus diangkat ikan itu? kerana didalam hati, dia mahukan ikan yang segar, kerana isi yang segar, manis rasanya. lembut keadaanya. dan licin kulitnya.

bukankah elok jika dia menyiapkan semuanya sebelum dia pergi memancing? alangkah eloknya.

mungkin hanya yang ada dirumah boleh digunakan untuk memasak, tp kenakah pada resepinya? ikannya? mahupun kehendak si pemancing atau ikan itu sendiri? kepusingan di situ.

dilepaskan ikan itu, mungkin satu yang boleh dilakukan, kerana dia tidak bersedia, tp adakah akan ada lagi ikan yang akan memakan umpannya? adakah dia pasti, yang ikan itu akan kembali berenang riang, tanpa dirasakan luka dibibir setiap kali ingin ia makan? kenapa tidak diangkat terus ikan itu, kerana itulah takdir dan rezeki kita.

diangkat, dan terus di bawa pulang.

hasil ketekunan dan kesabaran.

tidak jua lupa, kekuatan.

maka pulanglah sudah sipemancing dan ikannya. cukup satu untuk ketika ini. tiada peti untuk menyimpan ikan yang lain, kerana ikan yang dipancing hanya untuk dirinya shj.

disegerakan api itu menyala, sambil pisau2 menari memotong dan menyiang ikan. jika tidak cekap pemancing si tukang masak itu, mungkin ikan itu hilang ekornya bersama kepala tatkala sirip mahu dibuang.

pemancing si tukang masak cemas. cekap dan hebatkah dia untuk memasak ikan yang licin, lembut dan manis itu? cukupkah ilmu didada? alangkah bagus jika memasak mahupun menyiang, menyediakkan persediaan, dipenuhkan dlu didada dan diotak.sebelum memancing.

alangkah bagus.

alangkah.

ya.

bagus.

assalamualaikum wbt.