lesson 34 - its not that i don't give, i can't give up

time flies as the end date for this transition is almost up.

but hearing those music, the music that i have spent almost most of my time while i'm doing my civil engineering degree, i had flashed back on few occasions while looking at few faces, not so new ones and the new ones.

and i felt glad that i was entrusted by the ones before me

and i felt glad that i entrusted it to the ones after me

and i felt glad that i don't give up on certain people. 

and i felt glad that they also doesn't give up on certain people

and i felt glad that i still there looking at their growth

and i felt glad that i can still come and continue playing

and i felt glad that i can still come and continue to enjoy

as people become more valuable over time

as people become more reliable over time

as people become more dependable over time

some may take more time than others

some may take shorter time than others

that's human

as Allah doesn't give up on us, hence we should also not give up on ourselves

and others

the larger the challenge, the closer we should get to each other. to give support, to strengthen, to help. and from there, success will come to those who are remembrance of Allah and to those who have the patient and passion for success. 

lesson 33 - maju dan terus maju

tidak akan ada yang akan gagal selain dari maju terus ke hadapan

tatkala

ingatanmu akan si Pencipta

cinta akan si Pencipta

rindu akan si Pencipta

redha akan ketentuan si Pencipta

syukur akan nikmat si Pencipta

motivasi mu kerana si Pencipta

usaha kerana si Pencipta

sayang kerana si Pencipta

cinta kerana si Pencipta

rindu kerana si Pencipta

insyaAllah moga kita mula bangkit untuk menjadi seorang islam, muslim, dan mukmin yang sebenarnya dan seterusnya menjadi mukmin yang mujahidun, memperjuangkan syiar islam ke segenap tanah dimuka bumi, insyaAllah dimulai dengan orang orang yang kita sayangi. 

terima kasih 

Tuhan

Si Pencipta yang Agung

atas nikmat Islam

nikmat Iman

p/s: i need to find a sifu for next year.

lesson 32 - lonely, i no longer am. and i believe you too, my good friend

Assalamualaikum wbt

among the main culprit of one behaviours though can be arguably be said due to syaitan, but for me it was raised by feeling of loneliness. 

being alone, one would then tried to fill up his/her time to what it being 'set' to, either be in accordance to their 'favourite activities'. anything that could be planned to cover up the loneliness are not quantifiable and can be ranging to the simplest idea to even complicated ones. 

and how it could possibly be despite Allah in Surah Qaaf (50) verses 16 said "It was We who created man and We know what dark suggestions his soul makes to him; for We are nearer to him than (his) jugular vein"

is it us who tried to be far from Him despite He is near to us?

is it us who choose to ignore despite Him being with us?

i left these to you and to me to find it out.

insyaAllah we will find the answer if we verily seek Him.

may Allah bless!

^^

lesson 31 - a life at high altitude

assalamualaikum wbt dan selamat pagi!

i have been to one of the tallest mountain in the world or 20th in the world and tallest in south east asia. ouh let me rephrase that, i have conquered, but totally not owned it. 

the trip itself, if i were to briefly summarize it, would make a short sentence like "Gosh, tell me again why am I here?", "natang, penat nok mapuh", "haihhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh", "ok complete 50 steps, lets take 5 minutes break" and few sentences that i'm not proud of which shows how unfit i am trying to conquer this mountain. yep, i'm totally unfit. i haven't had my training for kinabalu where people should at least have some stamina (running or walking the stairs or hitch hiking or hill climbing) to prepare themselves for this. what i did is solely writing a post at this blog (haktuih?), editing pictures, and etc that doesn't involve any sweats (except that i spend 2 months before this event at offshore :P)

hamim, bro and me at the peak

despite everything, the scenery was awesome! worth of every please-refer-to-the-above-statement-that-shows-how-tired-and-frustrated-it-can-be and i just show you one of that. the mount had just had its rain and the waters starts to pour and form a river. later that, a high sky sunset, orange and blue which is outstandingly awesome.

but, that trip teach me alot, exactly two things that i can use. 

the first lesson was taught by my tour guide or porter (we did used porter for our trip)

"move, even at smallest steps that you can make, at your own convenience and pace. do not stop as necessary stops would only turn your momentum down. 

you could think that by stopping, you would gain strength, but dealing with mind, stops can only make you stop and not reaching your goal. 

hence, move, take your action, and surely you would be able to find and reach your goal."

the second lesson was only understood after I went down from the peak with all those-please-refer-to-the-above-statement-that-shows-how-tired-and-frustrated-it-can-be. 

"never expect things to go smooth especially if you do not prepare for it. preparation is a must or you would see hellish situation despite everything can be solved or completed"

i'll prepare myself, for my second trip to kinabalu. this is a revenge!

wish me luck and hope you can learnt something from this lesson. 

insyaAllah.

lesson 30 - what is your contractual?

haven't you ponder reasons behind


the likeness of people who would like to have and keep every receipts of their expenses?
the likeness of people who read through the term and conditions for each of online items that they bought?
the likeness of people who understood the meaning on every sentence that they read?
the likeness of people who like to have everything written, black and white, and stamped on it?
the likeness of people who put everything, binding it in a document called contract?

it is to
perform better
manage better
know better
fulfill it to the maximum


and to avoid 
penalty
any commercial risk
liability and indemnity

and the next question would be,
what is your contract to perform such?
what is the guideline?
and were the verses or clauses in your contract and guideline can guarantee and offer protection to you?

i can only name one

This is also inconjunction with Nuzul Quran this Ramadhan (I know I'm late :P)

p/s: lesson 30 marks the 150 post! (at last)

lesson 29 - air yang keroh

assalamualaikum wbt.

kalau berjumpa air yang keroh

biarkanlah ia, jgn dikacau

risau nanti, bertambah pula

the first thing to do when you are trying to solve a problem, is observe the problem or situation. once observation is done, try to understand whether or not the problem can be solved linearly. in solving problem be it mathematical speaking or normal way of doing things, linear approach is the first step. once it it confirmed that linear is no longer applicable, then you will proceed with non-linear approach and add up few variables to that approach to linearize it.

and how this relates to "air yang keroh"? most people tends to stir around the problem causing more ruckus as compared to let it settle first, see, observe before any approach to be done. jumping towards the "air yang keroh" would only make you look stupid, but surely more problem will come in the future. hence, the poem states let it be, and then solve everything in a swift.

as long you done your part well, insyaAllah God will help to ensure at His ends.

:)

lesson 28 - for what future may lies

assalamualaikum wbt.

for what past may have stored

and imprinted in the book of deeds

or history

the more reason 

for what future may lies

may written

may stamped

for what it may resembles the past

nor it create a new

bright

and good story

time to wake up

it is time

to wake up

wake up

and raise

until you found your inner piece

for you to meet with your trueself

for what future may lies

lets hope its a bright one

for us

for our family

for our kids

p/s: it is time, for us, for our religion and for our country, pls

lesson 27 - some little things

sometimes we just need a little forces to ensure all things fallen into one pieces
sometimes we just need a pat at the back to know all things fallen into one pieces
sometimes we just need a 'hi' at us to know that we had fallen into one pieces

sometimes we never did not acknowledge how a small effort can change things that should had fallen into pieces

p/s: hi awk! (to whom that i haven't say hi)
p/s: currently facing the first simpo for the year, full workload of working, 1 album, and 2 future weddings and thank you to my sv for saying hi
-pulun + gegor-

lesson 26

despite all things that are in front of us

rubbish

wall as high as it can be

or emptiness

we can only look forward

the days that i went missing

assalamualaikum wbt

there were a number of days that i went missing (actually taking leave) but apparently some people queried (and i think missing) me for not being presence during that days (it was 5 working days and 1 weekends which amounting to 7 days).

some even queried and say, did i get married (nikah) in that 7 days. no i'm not, at this moment but look forward for future :P (fuh disclaimer gile). as to properly answer you guys, i went for a class, non-'academic' class but its quite academic if you look at one angle, but it does not at other angle.

to cut it short, just play video here

i have learnt alot, no doubt about it on the technical and commercial aspect of it. its a great 7 days. i have laughed alot, smiled alot, working out my brain alot and of course i have been criticized alot during that 7 days. but as i say, to make a great weapon, the steel need to be properly hit and heat up before it can turned to be a sharp and powerful weapon. else, it would turned up to be as a blunt weapon, which will be useless in the battle.

this are part of the pictures during one of the module, there are more on other session but let upload it in stages. currently finishing off wedding album for my previous clients. hope that they will be waiting with patience. :P

enjoy some of the pictures! and those who would like to sharpen their sword, do come and be part of SNAPers!

p/s: this is more or less inside my 'album'

p/s2: thanks SN, SNAP and ZTP for providing me with lots of insight. i'll see you later this year. :)

lesson 24 - our journey

(assalamualaikum wbt)

if we were to look through our past journey, how have it been

have it been a road that full of potholes, covered with patches

have it been road that seen less potholes, yet its not covered

if we were to look back,

or look into the eyes of the young ones

of their innocences faces

how can we rate ourselves,

for what God and this life stored for us

this life and hereafter

as he, our Teacher once said

be associated with the young ones, and the old ones

hopefully

we are soo totally amazing

like a new road

wishfully, hopefully

p/s: pic taken during the Qum Actor session at klpac open day

lesson 23 - fight oh!

dun dwell on something, if you thought of stopping half way.

dun dwell on something, if you do not want to commit.

dun dwell on something, if you think you will lose

else, you would be thief of time.

even

even

if you have a slightest chance

of hope

of possibility

fight, if it cost you everything

and surely, you chance will grow

since we do not know

what future lies

lesson 22 - limitation(s)

why do we limit our very own imagination and solely based on the guidelines?

the guideline is there to guide, not to limit.

literature is there, for us to understand, not to limit.

as the world is full of uncertainties, possibilities, and oppurtunities,

why bother to limit, as we can go much further, extra miles, i would say.

as long as we know, the true meaning behind it, whether or not it meant to be or not meant to be, than going extra mile would be possible.

imagination, should have no bounds, as this world created by Al-Mighty have none.

and for us, to seek and understand His power, for us to obey, for us to be amazed,

we, above all, as His servant, should not be limited by our very own limitations.

cause He is indeed Allah the Al-Mighty.

rehat!

assalamualaikum...

in some part of our life, a decision needs to be made, as to focus what seems to be important for future. not to worry much, the time will come for us to be normal again.

^^v

lesson 20 - the weight

assalamualaikum...

in certain part or time, all the things that you knew, you felt, you understood, has been piled up, taken up the storage loading, filled up most of your time, and at that point of time, you might have think, that's time for you to tidy up, clean up or archive it.

for the things to be cleared, for new things and all kind of new, to be given a space in certain part or time. but, would it be appropriate, to clean up and archive it? would the clean up give you the things that you really need, or it just, maybe, provide you the surface of what you really need? would it be, by cleaning up, the weight can be less on your shoulder to carry, but at the end, after a while, you miss the weight that you have been carrying all these time?

the storage, along with the time and things it had, may or may not grew, proportionate to the allocation that it had been allocated, but it is possible, where managed properly. and all kind of new subject, can fit into the exisiting storage.

again, its merely an option.

and not an excuse. nah, its not.

cause i would rather be filling, carrying and managing it now, before later. cleaning is possible, but not archiving nor cutting loose end. that weight, the weight is what and somehow taught and teach you sooner or later.

lesson 19 - analogi pemancing si tukang masak

tersebutlah kisah hikayat seorang pemancing yang juga si tukang masak yang merasakan suda tiba masanya pada hari tersebut, untuk dia ke laut. ke laut untuk menunaikan dan melaksanakan apa yang diperlukan untuk dia terus hidup.

sudah diketahui dan sudah diteliti kenapakah harus dia pergi ke laut untuk memancing dan kemana dan apa yang harus dilakukan untuk pergi memancing. lubuk2 ikan selar, ikan parang, ikan bawal semua sudah didalam otaknya cuma hatinya harus memilih, yang mana satu yang harus dipancingnya.

maka tiba masanya untuk bergerak ke laut, akan tetapi dia tahu, ke laut banyak caranya. melalui bot besar, sampan kecil mahupun hanya menumpang bot org lain ke laut. apapun caranya, duit harus dikeluarkan untuk menampung kepemergiannya ke laut. banyak atau sedikit hasilnya, dia juga tahu, ia bergantung kepada caranya ke laut. akan tetapi, sesetengah pemancing berpendapat, ikan tidak melihat cara, akan tetapi melihat umpan yang dipasangkan pada mata joran. asalkan ikan itu tidak materialisitik, sudah pasti dengan sampan milik orang lain pun mampu diangkat juga ikan tersebut.

setelah malam menjelma, bertemankan langit yang tidak berbulan, gelap akan tetapi cahaya bintang yang malap mampu memberikan petunjuk kepada sesiapa yang memahami dan melihat dengan sebenar-benar melihat, si pemancing itu bergerak menaiki cara yang dipilihnya. mungkin kali ini, hanya sampan yang dia mampu. berdayung dan mencari lubuk yang difikirnya selamat untuk memancing, dan dengan itu, dia pasang dan dilontarkan umpan ke dalam laut. mungkin boleh saja dia melontarkan jala, tp adakah dia pasti, sampan itu mampu menyimpan hasil jalaannya?

setelah lama menunggu, mungkin seperti sebelum ini, hasilnya tiada. mungkin sudah tiada ikan yang merasakan umpan itu layak dimakan. atau mungkin rezekinya adalah pada ikan yang sebelumnya kecil, akan tetapi sudah membesar tatkala dia memancing.

malam bergerak, dan akhirnya disentap jua tali pancing itu.

pemancing itu kaget. berdebar, adakah mungkin ikan itu tidak mampu ditewaskan? maka satu pertarungan, apa yang harus dilakukan. kalau ditarik sekuat2nya, maka mungkin tali itu akan putus, dan ikan itu akan pergi. mungkin kalau dilepas tali, cangkuk itu pun terlepas dan ikan itu berenang kembali. walau ikan itu berenang, luka dimulut tetap ada, dan luka pasti meninggalkan parut.

maka pemancing itu menarik dan melepaskan tali, diharap supaya ikan itu mengikut rentaknya dan akhirnya tewas. tarik dan lepas.

tarik dan lepas. dan ia semakin dekat.

tarik.

tarik.

lepas.

tarik.

tatkala ikan itu sudah dirasakan sudah dekat, difkirkan pula, selepas sahaja ia diangkat naik, maka ikan itu akan cepat untuk tidak segar. diingatkan pula, adakah dia sudah menyediakan persediaan dirumah untuk memasak ikan itu. sudah adakah garamnya? gula? bawang putih? kunyit mahupun halia? apakah yang ingin dimasak dengan ikan itu? kenakah resepi dengan ikan tersebut? siakap, bawal atau parang, ada masakannya tersendiri.

dan dia tahu, jika persediaan memasak belum ada, maka lebih masa akan diperlukan untuk memasak, dan lebih masa bermakna keadaan ikan itu akan kurang elok berbanding yang asalnya. berbelah bagi si pemancing itu, adakah harus diangkat ikan itu? kerana didalam hati, dia mahukan ikan yang segar, kerana isi yang segar, manis rasanya. lembut keadaanya. dan licin kulitnya.

bukankah elok jika dia menyiapkan semuanya sebelum dia pergi memancing? alangkah eloknya.

mungkin hanya yang ada dirumah boleh digunakan untuk memasak, tp kenakah pada resepinya? ikannya? mahupun kehendak si pemancing atau ikan itu sendiri? kepusingan di situ.

dilepaskan ikan itu, mungkin satu yang boleh dilakukan, kerana dia tidak bersedia, tp adakah akan ada lagi ikan yang akan memakan umpannya? adakah dia pasti, yang ikan itu akan kembali berenang riang, tanpa dirasakan luka dibibir setiap kali ingin ia makan? kenapa tidak diangkat terus ikan itu, kerana itulah takdir dan rezeki kita.

diangkat, dan terus di bawa pulang.

hasil ketekunan dan kesabaran.

tidak jua lupa, kekuatan.

maka pulanglah sudah sipemancing dan ikannya. cukup satu untuk ketika ini. tiada peti untuk menyimpan ikan yang lain, kerana ikan yang dipancing hanya untuk dirinya shj.

disegerakan api itu menyala, sambil pisau2 menari memotong dan menyiang ikan. jika tidak cekap pemancing si tukang masak itu, mungkin ikan itu hilang ekornya bersama kepala tatkala sirip mahu dibuang.

pemancing si tukang masak cemas. cekap dan hebatkah dia untuk memasak ikan yang licin, lembut dan manis itu? cukupkah ilmu didada? alangkah bagus jika memasak mahupun menyiang, menyediakkan persediaan, dipenuhkan dlu didada dan diotak.sebelum memancing.

alangkah bagus.

alangkah.

ya.

bagus.

assalamualaikum wbt.

lesson 18 - may i know your destination pls?

assalamualaikum and good day!

at a certain age of life, you may started to look on where you are going to head. some of you, did not even think on where are your final destination. some might end up that eventhough they have something in mind, they are stuck at some path that most of the time, may not provide the happiness that they are looking for.

the first question is now, are you clear where is your destination? if you are taking flight, you are sure where is your destination, even there might be some transit at the middle of the flight. why are u sure? because the destination is written both at the ticket and at your head. and this, can be applicable to your life too..by starting to chart out your life i.e. final and intermediate transit, you may and may not lost your way, which will be challenge later.


now, the second question is that, would you current path, leads to your final destination? some may say, no and lots of F words together with long and long list of words. true, i would be that same person too, well before that I noe that there are meaning in every work that you did. IF and only IF, you are smart and think enough to understand the meaning. the more you understand the meanings or the other words is, reading between the lines, the more happier you can be...


so, i just leave these two question to you and hopefully, you may get the answer!
good day~

^^

p/s: the picture is taken during a MAS flight to Bintulu.

gamelan utp for dummies

assalamualaikum...

[first and foremost, this is not an intriguing or insulting post, read through if you think you would like to hear my last teaching regarding gamelan utp, saje je kasik title macam panas skit..

with regards to some request from the gamelan utp members, here would be my last tips (i believe so) for gamelan utp. would there be any other tips afterwards? i do not know which i do hope this one alone is suffice. others is solely up to the current team. like i said, we are the ex not the current, we can do is merely to see and comments for the benefit of the team.

there are lots of stages for the management to manage the team and for the other members to contribute to the success for the team which i hop, it is deliberately being explained here]

planning

planning of team members is solely up to the vacancy and quota for each batch...my standard practice is about maximum of 4 people per batch and max of 2 or 3 per each batch per instrument. thus, it is up to coordinator to plan. locating a 'good' player is also tough, it cant be made tru one night but it is usually 1 sem of surveillance. what we trully see can be varied but seniors is always see commitments, ATTITUDE, discipline and passion.

training

a young member should always come as early as possible since he/she have to practice twice/thrice as much as the seniors or she/he would be left behind and blurred for quite a time.and it doesnt meant that if you are ok or being a senior, u can come late since being seniors, your responsibility are increased. u have to teach the juniors or else, the team can collapse, not because of he/she alone but unsynchronize aura from the team.

if you may think, you are completely good in your instrument, then go for other instrument. there is always a lack in your skills and always think that u can improve better for the group would help. it is always important to have that sense of feeling. dun waste your time coming for training just for the sake of usha awek, sms-ing, fb-ing, sleeping, rubic and etc...once you are in the room, just all out.

in training, understand what the songs should sound like, the bit, the rythm? (ah tatau eja), harmony and others..it is important to correct it esp when there are lots of new members...there are always more risk if there are more new members...this is a fact...and management should take care of this...

songs management

songs for gamelan are limited, it is well known among the team. so the coordinator need to know what songs to be played which would give more advantage to the team, which songs that they are most prepared, less risk, have more training, less mistakes, and familiar with. besides that, you may also need to go for a backup songs if situation ask for it..always have a backup plan, not only in gamelan, but in ur life too...

secondly, you may also need to understand that there are people who are deply in love in gamelan and notice what songs being played per year...esp staff, medtech, those taking gamelan and etc..lots of thing to consider...

members management

it is important for management to understand the 'aura' of your team members...whether they are ok and etc2...protect them, make them happy since members are the assets of the team..without them, there are no more gamelan utp...details? i do believe some of you know better than this..

please make sure that the team is happy and less tension...music are meant to give happiness and not tension!

pre-performance

how many players to be included per performance, the availability of members, the locations, the instruments (which should be tested prior to transportation), the small2 things and mic...coordinator should listen on where the songs are coming from and where the mic should be located.it is important for the outcome of the sound to balance out from the team..

and always have time for rehearsal eventhough you have been training for 2 months prior to the event..new situation, new surrounding can kill the team, and always include this risk into the planning...same goes if you have been training yesterday and on the day, just play 1 songs to check on the mic and the feeling of the team...YES IT IS IMPORTANT!!

performance

management should give some sort of speech to reduce the 'kecuakkan' of the team..to comfort the team and then after 1 song, the team should be fine...that is why, pre performance are important...

the team should always remember that they are not playing for themselves but for the audience..what important is to bring happines not to us, but to others too...

past performance

get together after the training can help to bring the team into shape, transporting the instrument back to the lorry, kemas2 and have few small talks on what to improve should give a good impact to the team...

and mapley! is also good...pekena teh tarik sambil2 borak, pergh sumpah lege....

hurm, i dun noe but i do believe i have covered all aspects of gamelan utp...good luck and have fun for gamelan utp...this i would say the good bye note, not that i want to leave you guys but i do believe that gamelan utp should stand and walk on its own..i believe that i should give more space for the current management by giving tips and this might be one of the way....

always remember your roots, gamelan utp is the most discipline and trusted group in UTP...we are known to have a very good record in delivering our job and that is WHY we can play gamelan not only inside but outside UTP...since the management TRUST us...and do not, do not BREAK the trust...

p/s: from now on, i can shape my future faster...dun worry, ill be there if God permits me to be there...family will always be family and all those memories, for the past 5 years being with gamelan will always be in my "external hd" :P

lesson 17 - down

assalamualaikum...

someone asked me this question on why you feel stress and down and how in my opinion and exp (since aku tua -_-") overcome these two situations.

sometimes, you expect more from others i.e. you hope that you be treated well by your environment, colleagues and might be your family but at then, they are not doing what you hope for. at this time, you feel down. secondly, when you expect something more, and you get it, later on you found out that you are do not like that and hoping for another one. stress came in to place. later on, more and more work that are not related to what you like come one after another. thus, more stress come in. its about expecting more than what you have now, what your current situation now and not feeling gratefull with what you have..

even with your spouse (ok aku single lg), you expecting them to be closed at all time, treating you well and etc2 while they might have their own problem, even they are your spouse. what you can do would be, expect less, give more to others.

there is some saying that if you give more to others eventhough you are really occupied, God will help you through that particular situation. at the end of the day, when noone can ever back u up, only He can and will help you. so at the first place, never put high expectation, perception to others. rely on Him and later on, even other people let you down and cut you 'part by part', you be able to stand tall.

^^v

p/s: mls a nk tunggu gamba...tunggu gamba tak berupdate a blog aku ni...
p/s2: ada faham?

lesson 16 - we got old for a reason

assalamualaikum...

day by day, we are adding numbers to our age...counting how many days left for birthday celebration...tapi, adakah kita menjadi lebih tua dan lebih pandai, or menjadi tua tapi sama je kesengalan dia?

skang bagi aku, adalah perlu utk kita kuasai ilmu, kenapa? so that kita bole cre8 oppurtunity utk kita pada masa depan...tak semestinya ilmu tu ilmu academic je, but others too, cam communication skill, confidence level, critical and creative thinking, planning skills, guiding skill, leading skills and bla2...

tp certain org, bile dah grad, diorg ada satu penyakit yg rasa tak perlu ilmu tu..meaning, dah tayah nk belaja..maka diorg akan jd org obselete...biarpon dia dh keje berapa lama, tp ilmu dia setakat tu, tamo belaja dr org len sbb he thinks ilmu dia ada dah cukup and org leh tanding ngan dia sbb dia dah lama keje...

tak pon, bile makin tua, makin menjadi perangai...spttnya, kita harus menjadi lebih baik dari semalam, bukan dr segi amalan saje, tp segi pengisian diri...maybe before dis, kita tak faham kenapa kita wat sesuatu, but day by day, suppose kita dah faham for wat reason kita mende tu...sesungguhnya bukan mata yang buta, tetapi hati kita mungkin buta...

getting old, we should enjoy it...tak semestinya jd tua taleh jd kanak2 or remaja blk...hidup ini kita bole cuba aturkan, apa kita nk jadi...and semoga end of the day, it meant alot not only to us, but for our religion, nation and to this beloved earth...kita sebagai org tua, its our job to let others that below us to rise to be a better pepel and to continue great things that we suppose to do...


lets aging, and with meanings, with reasons, and shine dis world with God values...

^^v

p/s: lama gile nk siapkan post ni...